Hmmm...

Some think they deserve more, Give a little like its become a chore. Dont demand things and walk yourself out the door. I fell flat on my face too many times, left with nothing but some cheep perfume. Now you cry, Now you need need me , Now that perfums not cheep. But I told you... If you wanted to be my only one. If you wanted to see this happen. Maybe you should have tried harder. If you thought I would leap into your arms, every time is see your face, Then maybe you should have tried harder....
He does not seem to get the fact, that my sister is part of my life too and that. If he doesnt want me to see her , her mom wont let that happen. He is like a light switch, when he wants to be my father and a good on he is on , but when he is off  he is this ass that thinks I dont need him. Well if thats what he wants fine.... but  I  will not have my sister think I abandoned her because of him . Because I will not be like him.
I wrote this May 9th. I was angry, hurt. I still am. But I am part of my sisters life. When I went to her birthday party me and my father did not speak.I am hoping he is man enough now to take care of a child. Because my father left when I was 4. So I pray this wont happen to her. She is such a beautiful baby, and dad treats her like any father would. I guess people would wonder how I felt about that? I think it is wonderful that he is a good father to her, I guess you could say that there are some hurt feelings. But I dont resent her. I have a pretty awesome life, 50% of the time. Im just happy that he plans on being a good father. Because it is hard not having a dad around, to be fully honest IT SUCKS MORE THAN GRAVITY!!! But when it happens you have no control over it , so you learn to deal with the hurt, and it is not easy....
Song: Should Have Tried Harder: Hey Monday
Love Kyra